In this blog:You=Me. Not actually you. I know. Selfish, Using second person all for myself. I got a little carried away.
When your friend’s little baby girl holds your hand as she falls asleep in her car seat, When a meal you make comes out not only edible but tasty, When you can spend the night laughing in bed with a friend, When you can still cry on your daddy’s shoulder at twenty one, When he tells you you’re the strongest person he knows ironically at the same time you’re crying on his shoulder,When country-karaoke in the car is a must, When a near-stranger tells you you’re a good person,When your family comes to see your soon-to-be-new-house and your mom begs you to not cut the honeysuckle down,When you can throw fits to your boss without getting fired, When a new friend lets you know just how much you mean to her and then you both can’t help but get a little too sappy and emotional, When your husband is waiting to watch Gossip Girl with you after you come home from a fun night with friends…You walk on air no matter how much stress or how much life you’re facing.
I feel like I have a lot of hanging threads right now. I’m learning that neutrality in itself is a war and that sometimes life chooses things for you; I can’t be everything to everyone and worry about pleasing her and her and him and my mom all at once. So I’m going to deal with everything one at a time, and in the best way I can. I’m making big-girl decisions,guys. Be proud. I’m taking responsibility and using my words and stuff. I’m still getting there. In the meantime, my last class is tomorrow. Oh, Summer. Hello.